YOU.

                                                                                                                                               

I have a crush on our potential

I’m smitten by our possibility

Everyday I literally trip on how happy we could be

There are hunger pains in my belly that crave your unavailability

The fact that your love is injected in small doses

Gives me an opportunity to ignore

My pain

My brokenness

& it refills my shattered spirit just enough for me to function

You are the place that my mind travels to as it wanders

The destination that it reaches when I need a break from my rough reality

You’re the last breath that I let escape before I drown

This love is stronger than just me wanting you around

More than I could have even anticipated

I pray for you harder than I have ever prayed for myself

This is getting expensive

For how much longer can you penny, nickel or dime your worth?

3 month flirty flings and temporarily serious situationships don’t quench my thirst

I’m a lover

A fighter

An investor

I get attached to the cracks in your character & cover them like a scar until they heal

Give me a few shots of you

Straight with no chaser

Let your juices moisten my palate

& Dance on my tongue

There’s nothing that I want from you, but you

Your Russell Stover chocolate complexion

Your cabernet sauvignon stained lips

Your face; to turn the corners of your mouth into numerous smiles

You can’t see this because you’re blinded by everyone you’ve ever wanted wanting something from you

You are my goal

My sunshine that illuminates the shadiest shadows

Decisions to make

Lessons to learn

This feels like suicide

& maybe it is

To effectively build something stronger you have to destroy everything that was in the way

Maybe I am making the choice to kill the parts of me that would bruise you

My ego

My pride

My fears

I want another season of love

A lifetime of waking you up with the smell of whatever your indecisive nose wants for breakfast

I want you

I want to kiss the creases of your lower back

Lick the worries of the day from the inside of your thighs

& hold you tightly until you exhale

I want us to argue

& agree to disagree over our differences but never let anything weaken our bond

I respect you

I will forever invest in your dreams & value your vulnerability

I have a crush on our potential

I’m smitten by our possibility

Everyday I literally trip on how happy we WILL be

There are motion pictures that play in my mind

Scenes of us getting caught up during a game of tickle torture

Images of rocking chairs, flashes of faith, screenshots of our success
I would rather live in your world, than be without you in mine

You are my goal.